future

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How do I know where to belong,
I feel myself pulled in various directions,
I feel time pulling me forward.
Memories taking me back
To when before was in the moment.
I want to be held by him,
I want him to be more.
Time is moving
My heart beating for him 
How do I know
What to do
I'm waiting for the uncertain
A future that feels out of my hands.

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