F. Jason Whitaker Writer

Sometimes everything is too much. Sometimes I need to get away, Sometimes I need to be somewhere Other than where I am now. I think of love and a lover, I think of hope and desire, I think of being close to him The things I could do with him. I'm alone waiting for the one, Love and so much more, Times shared and memories made Together we could make life more bearable.

Sunday night. This afternoon I returned from a trip to the mountains with one of my churches. We went to a camp site near Gorges State Park, the same site we went last year just before I was evicted from the facility I was being kept by DSS. My friend picked me up Thursday morning and we rode up to the mountain on Friday. My friend and I shared the converted horse trailer that we shared the last time. It was great getting away from the facility and all of the noises the old man, my roommate, makes especially at night. My Able sc person is coming out this week for a meeting. A Bingo I attend is next week. I've attended twice and I've won once. I'm going to the dentist soon and I have an appointment with a counselor soon. I'm hopeful about moving back to California and everything working out for the best. I plan to watch the new season of Euphoria tomorrow. I need to call the life insurance company about the check that never arrived. My friend took me to Sam's club Th...

Sunday, April 05, 2026 Happy Easter 🐰 🐣 I was at my friend's house since Friday. I'm back at the facility with the old man, my roommate, that's noisy at night. I'm looking forward to being on my own. My caseworkers took me to the dentist. I have Medicaid now. I'm having the bad tooth and my wisdom teeth removed. I'm not looking forward to the procedure. This weekend I'm going to the mountains with my friend and one of our churches. It's the same place we went last year. I'm anxious about where I'm going after here. I don't know what I want but I believe moving back to California would be the best. I'm worried about living in South Carolina and not being able to get anywhere. The thought of being alone in my apartment all of the time makes me anxious. I have no idea what else I'm doing this week. I'll need to pack for the mountains. I'm looking forward to the trip...

I'm here for you if you weren't aware, I've been here these many months Waiting for changes to my life After changes to my life brought me here. I'll be here, wherever here is, for those times Times you'll have like the times I've had. I'm not certain where I'm going after But for now I'm here dreaming of What's after these days of longing for more Than I've ever had before...