F. Jason Whitaker Writer

Sunday, March 08, 2026 It's Sunday evening. The morning the time changed. I feel uncertain. I'm anxious about everything. I went to first Baptist Greenville SC with Gary. We went by MacDonald first. Afterwards we went to Panera Bread. I like my Sunday school at first Baptist. I watched christ chapel of the valley on Facebook when I arrived back at the facility. I only ate part of my sandwich at lunch so I had the rest of the sandwich and the full salad at dinner. I'm considering staying in Greenville at least for now instead of moving directly back to California. I don't think I can handle the stress of finding housing. I know that I would prefer a place with public transportation and other resources but South Carolina might have to be my home for at least a while longer. My roommate's noise making is difficult to deal with because it makes it difficult to sleep. He's an old man and doesn't seem to care that he's making so much noise. I'm planning on...

I've seen these days in dreams I've seen the storm clouds, For years  I sat by her bed Knowing each night could have been  Our last time together Watching streaming on the TV.

Thursday, March 05, 2026 I walked at least 15 miles yesterday so I'm taking it easy today. I plan on doing some exercise today in the room here. I have something I want to write and submit to something but the due date is the end of March. I'm going to work on it today. I feel tired. I'm overwhelmed and physically tired but my mind is active. I'm thinking about so many things. I need to focus on my writing but focusing on anything is difficult. I'm uncertain about decisions that I will have to make. I'm overwhelmed by the uncertainty of everything.

Wednesday, March 04, 2026 Today has been a long day. I left here this morning to have breakfast at Eggs up Grill. I had a free breakfast but it was almost lunch when I arrived. The food and service was great. My toe is still hurting. I walked at least 15 miles today. I went to circle k, twice to one location and once to another location, obtaining 2 free circle k chocolate bars and buying a TY cat at the other location. I went to Publix and I bought a few items on sale. I went to Taco Bell for 3 free items: one of the potatoes with cheese and two Baja Blast frozen beverages. I also went to Spinx for a free energy drink I won on the app and I gave it to a staff member at the facility I'm currently living. I'm tired but not sure if I could sleep. I returned the Xbox game I had borrowed from the library. I'm considering walking somewhere tomorrow...

  Tuesday, March 03, 2026 Today was definitely different than I had imagined last night. My friend Gary picked me up and took me to The Cheesecake factory. He bought me lunch for my birthday which isn't until the 15th. He bought me 2: Xbox One games for my birthday. We went by Walmart on the way to The Cheesecake factory. He took me by my bank afterwards. Today was a good day. Tomorrow I'm walking to get a free breakfast and other things. I need to get myself to focus and work on my writing. I need to get some writing completed. I'm planning to walk other places this month.

Monday, March 02, 2026 A new month. My birthday is this month, the 15th. I'm tired of being in this facility. I'm tired of waiting for the unknown. I miss the way things were before. I mean before she became too sick to do anything. I miss walking to places with her. It's still weird not being home. I wonder what life, daily life, will be like once I get my benefits. I had considered life after her before but I had no idea what it would be like and I definitely never imagined what has happened would ever happen. At lunch today I was the only person not given something to drink. I didn't eat the food. I'm trapped here in the middle of nowhere in South Carolina waiting for the uncertain. I have no idea what's happening next. I don't know if I can believe anything anyone tells me.