too much

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Chest rising
Air in
Is exchanging.
I'm too tired to
Be complaining.
Nothing of before
Is remaining.
I'm here waiting
While containing
Inside all of those feelings
From a lifetime of trauma.
I'm going through so much
But I've got nobody to turn to
When things become too much for me.

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