F. Jason Whitaker Writer

I've got no answers I'm just figuring myself out Who am I is the question... I've been going through life Uncertain about everything Following each moment As it lead me here. Stuck in this moment I'm losing myself In the hours of waiting Watching the sun and the moon Through these most difficult times...

Chest rising Air in Is exchanging. I'm too tired to Be complaining. Nothing of before Is remaining. I'm here waiting While containing Inside all of those feelings From a lifetime of trauma. I'm going through so much But I've got nobody to turn to When things become too much for me.

Over the time passing Moon rising I'm guessing Last night dreaming Everything seeming Standstill Morning pill For depression Regression As I feel this moment  It's overwhelming Being uncertain About everything to come After this moment is done.

Lonely I'm alone everyday. Waiting for change When change takes So long to become... I'm going through Changes to my everything.

I've gone too long without you, I've gotten myself in a place I find foreign everyday. These hours of waiting Watching streaming Dreaming of a better life. I'm going through many things Emotions rushing through me As I contemplate the possible. Do I have a plan? I'm just going through Each day as it comes Pushing me forward...

Good morning Another day I'm not hopeful But I will remain Focused on getting through Each day new I'm still waiting Here for the changes to my life.

These years I've been In the middle of something, Lost in my anxiety I've been overwhelmed By the things I've experienced. Looking forward I hope things Get better but it's not easy To see anything past this moment I'm living through...

I'm putting this out there because I need help. I'm Autistic with ADHD and PTSD from trauma and sexual trauma. I'm currently in DSS custody in South Carolina waiting for my benefits. I'm working on moving back to California. I need help. I'm hopeful that someone out there will have knowledge of resources that I am unaware of. I need as much help as possible. Please share this if possible

I've got nothing but time Nothing to do but streaming, I'm dreaming of a life Away from here. It's miserable  I'm not feeling well Waiting for someon To do something  To make things better After they've made things worse. I'm here alone Stuck with everything I had once Now gone...

Don't forget me I'm not going anywhere today I'm trapped here I've been here Too long I've been trapped here For this many months.

Blues is the song Playing while I go on Don't you realize  I've been in the same place As you are now.

I've lost so much I'm alone in my struggle Trapped inside Nowhere to go  I've never been So alone as I am. These hours I live These days I drift through Trying to keep myself going It's been so much for me Never knowing what is next.

Bitter is the truth Not told by those Keeping me here Trapped in this unfamiliar Waiting to go back to the familiar.

Cold air flows over the mountain The leaves of brown and red Changes everywhere As a new month begins. I'm still here waiting Debating everything. The things before The things now The things to be Flow through my mind. I'm waiting for something I'm not sure about. It's now October And I've been away from home 4 months.