inside out

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I'm in the middle of another day
Nowhere but everywhere
Inside of my head,
I trace these feelings back
To before I knew my diagnosis,
I knew I was different
Alone even in a crowded room
I never knew how to detail
The many things going on
Inside of my mind.
I'm sorry not sorry if
You can't understand 
I've got too many things
Going on within
To let it out...

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