F. Jason Whitaker Writer

 Tuesday, August 19, 2025   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-jasons-journey-back-to-california/cl/o?utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_content=amp13_t1&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&lang=en_US&attribution_id=sl%3A9e4c851e-95f0-45f5-981b-c94bd71b0989&ts=1755517501 Tuesday, August 19, 2025 It's another Tuesday. I'm still here. I need help obtaining my benefits in California. I'm Autistic with ADHD. I need help moving back to California. I'm currently in DSS custody in Greenville sc. I don't know what to do. I texted my caseworkers yesterday about moving to California. I have not heard back. I'm feeling horrible today. I keep thinking about being back in California. I need out of here soo.n..  

 Monday, August 18th, 2025   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-jasons-journey-back-to-california/cl/o?utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_content=amp13_t1&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&lang=en_US&attribution_id=sl%3A9e4c851e-95f0-45f5-981b-c94bd71b0989&ts=1755517501 It's been a few weeks since I posted on my blogs on a daily basis. These past few months have been stressful and life changing. In case you don't know: I'm currently in DSS custody in Greenville County South Carolina. It's a longer story as to how I ended up here. My only family member passed away while I was here. I was living with her. I no longer have cats. My last remaining cat, Junior, was taken from me. Most of my belongings were stolen. I have so...

Sometimes I feel the rush of emotion, Depression and anxiety, It flows through me, It consumes my energy. I feel the day Like a weight, I keep going But it's heavy On me.

Sometimes I remember days before, Times spent dreaming  Of better things I never imagined Things would ever be The way they are now.

Hey I'm not going anywhere You You've been so bad I know your lies You keep telling everyone.

I feel these hours, Tired yet wide awake, Aware of memories Rushing through my mind. I find those times Of days long ago I want to hold on to The times gone But things are changing As I wait for promises To be broken again.

Last night I remembered Things you once told me About years before I was born, Stories of the things you've done But no one knows these tales You often told as you looked back So often over the past years Of your life. Now you're gone  I'm missing your voice And I miss hearing The stories of days gone.

Sometimes I forget for a moment You're no longer here to tell me stories  Of when you were younger Playing alone in the cemetery The same cemetery your body can now Be found buried.

He came into my life years ago, We kissed in his backyard. I loved him But my love wasn't returned. I have thought about him often But I'm certain he has never  Thought about me.

I'm alone in a strange place, I feel the space closing in on me, I'm not certain but I am aware Things have changed forever for me. I'm a stranger in a strange place Trying to find a way To not be sad all the time.

I woke up feeling the change In the weather, I miss you more each day I'm trapped in this place. I want to go back home Just to see your face Hear your voice One more time. They've stolen everything I had All I knew as my life Including the last days I could've had with you.

Time is ticking, I'm sinking into These feelings. I've lost so much, I'm waiting for better days, I've traveled so far I'm learning new ways To live each day Since things went From bad to worst. I am wondering why  I trusted them when They ruined my life.