F. Jason Whitaker Writer

I recall you  I've never met you  Except over the telephone. I miss hearing from you  I miss hearing your voice. I'm not holding back I miss those days when  We'd speak for hours. I miss you so much But I don't know how to get in touch  Again after all of this time has passed Are you still there In downtown Los Angeles  Living your life?

Here I go again Changes coming again I'm just going with the flow I'm not knowing where I'm going But I'm getting ready for the ride Times of change aren't new to me.

I float through the hours Finding places to land Sand beneath my feet Santa Monica pier nearby I follow the pavement Take the 4 to Hollywood. I'm not going anywhere Just going with the flow I don't know I would ever be Here again.

I'm here again A place to follow My dreams, I've been wanting to be here again For so long But the thing about being here That brings me down Is being here Without you...

I stand at the start of another day Sway to the music in my head. Forgot the words I read All those years before... I'm waiting for someone To be my somebody To hold me close Whenever I'm feeling alone.

I hear your words These lies I've been told A thousand times I've collected memories of The fake that comes With religion And religious people Making me aware Of how different I am From everyone else.

These silent hours are making me Irritable

I'm awake and alone Dreaming of those hours We had over the years Now begins the tears While missing you It breaks me in two Whenever I think Of you and you not being there anymore.

Sometimes we wake up uncertain Of where life is taking us I stood alone at that street corner Remembering the moments gone When we spoke on the phone But your voice I'll never hear again. Sometimes we go wherever the road takes us We find ourselves where we never imagined  A place in our minds we thought we'd forgotten.

I hear the radio song playing again, Don't mind the repetition I find it's soothing Knowing what's next Each time it comes on. I've been struggling inside Music calms the internal I need more music to calm me While I'm dealing with So many things in my life.

I hear the radio song playing again, Don't mind the repetition I find it's soothing Knowing what's next Each time it comes on. I've been struggling inside Music calms the internal I need more music to calm me While I'm dealing with So many things in my life.

Somewhere inside of my head Are the memories of her, There I still see her As she was before, I'm missing those days I'm looking forward to change But those changes last year Were tough on me  I'm still not over the loss Can't just toss away All of the years we had...

Sometimes I'm thinking about the way Things were before, Now that I'm getting away From all that once was For a place that once was Home for me.

These nights I dream of you, Days passing since I saw you there Upon that porch Before you left my life. I'm shifting to the other coast Trying to make it through This life.

I've got you on my mind I like to spend hours and rewind Time has passed so quickly I'm uncertain of what will be While I'm dreaming about what has been...

I count the seconds Time drifting like it's on a break I can't take these pauses In my life These in-between moments Waiting for whatever's next...

I've been wrestling with myself, I've been debating with myself, Life has been a day to day Getting through each moment Looking forward to the hope of the unknown Future days I've been waiting for All of these days and nights Alone wishing I could have What I once had For the rest of my life.

I've got no place to be, Stuck where I've been, Remembering a time When things weren't perfect But those times are now How I spend my moments Thinking about...

Sometimes I dream  Seems so real But in the morning I open my eyes To the nightmare Which is my life. In the silence between I want to scream About all of these things  I'm restless about. Suddenly I'm nowhere Wishing I was somewhere, Alone on my own Thinking how I need someone To be a part of my life.

I'm on Summer waiting for tomorrow, Sun is shining and I've been better. Come on changes take me from here I'm ready to move on but each day I'm still Remaining here waiting.