F. Jason Whitaker Writer

  Friday, February 28, 2025 I'm depressed. Someone I care about was told today that she might only have 6 months to live. I don't know what I'll do when she's gone. I don't know if I'll go anywhere today. I'm considering my plans. My head hurts and I've been crying...

  Thursday, February 27, 2025 Thursday. It's forecasted to rain today so I'm not going anywhere. It's early and I've already completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games. I need to decide what to do today or I'll end up doing nothing. You can still see the videos that you can see my cock. I'm not ashamed of my penis. I have always wondered if it's big enough. I've received multiple compliments about it in the past. I'm not going to post a bunch of photos or videos of my dick but I don't mind showing it sometimes including showing it to someone in person. I'm hoping that I'll meet the right guy and I'll finally have my first boyfriend. I'm not interested in older guys. I'd like someone who I can relate with and someone about my size. I am tired of being alone. In the past I made a few mistakes including allowing old men to suck my cock. I think one of them wanted a relationship from me but I wasn't attracted to him....

  Wednesday, February 26, 2025 It's Wednesday again. I posted new videos including one that ends on a photo of my penis. I wonder how many people will see it. This isn't the first video I've included imagery of my cock. I think I'll do it again sometime. I'm going to a free lunch today. I'm also going to Food Lion and possibly CVS.  I'm thinking about things I want to do. It feels overwhelming and I'm uncertain of myself. I think about having my first boyfriend and my first career.  I've completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games. I want to get this done early everyday so I have more time for other things. Have you seen my penis?  I'm looking for a way to start my life. I feel as though I'm not doing all that I could be doing.

  Tuesday, February 25, 2025 I went to Walmart today. I had some coupons. One was for Axe deodorant. The cashier took my coupon but didn't take it off the order. I had another coupon that was for a free can of  cat food but they didn't take off the full amount. Tomorrow I'm going to a free lunch and then Food Lion. I'll consider going to CVS as well.  Friday  morning I'm going after free produce. Friday evening is the D&D game night at the library in my community. I don't know what I'm doing Thursday. I want a boyfriend. I'd like to have sex. I'm versatile.  I continue to think that it's possible for me to meet the right guy. I hope that he'll take a chance on me. Soon it'll be March. My birthday is March 15th.

  Monday, February 24, 2025 Monday. I'm considering going somewhere tomorrow. I have plans for Wednesday and Friday. I have no idea what I'm doing. I try to keep going. I always look back over my life and wonder what I could have done differently for a better outcome. I'm  trying to start my life with a first career and my first boyfriend. I wonder if anyone will ever hire me and I wonder if anyone will ever be attracted to me. I'm uncertain what to do now.

  Sunday, February 23, 2025 Sunday. I'm feeling lonely. I need a boyfriend. I would like to cuddle. I imagine him behind me, holding me, kissing my neck. I'm versatile. I need a boyfriend who is versatile. I've never had a boyfriend. I want to have a life. I hate being alone. I don't know what I'm doing this week.

  Saturday, February 22, 2025 Saturday. I remained in bed later today because it was cold and I didn't want to get out of bed. I entered to win a truck and a RV today. I hope I win. I'm still hoping to meet my first boyfriend and future husband soon. It seems that guys claiming to be looking for a LTR on dating sites are lying. I've been going through some of my stuff today trying to get rid of something so I don't have as much. I don't feel like doing anything.

 Friday, February 21, 2025 I want a boyfriend. If you're interested interested in being my boyfriend let me know.

  Friday, February 21, 2025 I could have attended two things this evening but it was too cold for me. I didn't feel up to going anywhere. I wish that it had been warmer or that I felt like going. I wanted to go but I kept thinking about how cold it is tonight. I don't plan to go anywhere tomorrow. I don't know what I'm doing the rest of tonight or tomorrow.

  Thursday, February 20, 2025 I went to the library in my community this morning for the final time for a program about eating healthy. It was a cold ride there and a cold damp ride home. I felt the freezing rain. I was planning to go to the Queer Collective at the center tomorrow evening but it's going to be very cold, I Need a home. I need my first career and my first boyfriend. I need to figure out what to do with my life.  It's cold and I feel like going back to bed.

  Wednesday, February 19, 2025 It's cold and raining. I was able to, with help, pick up some produce today. I'm not going anywhere else today. I have plans for tomorrow morning but my plans might change due to the weather. I have plans Friday evening. I feel like going to bed. I need to get my MacBook working again.  I need to figure out how to achieve my goals.  I want to find my first boyfriend and my first career. I want to travel in a Grounded Campervan. I want a small house for when I'm not traveling. I want to spend time writing and reading. I want to submit my writing to somewhere. My birthday is March 15th.

  Tuesday, February 18, 2025 I went to the library in my community this afternoon believing I had a meeting. I found out, while waiting and checking my email, that the meeting had been postponed. I've  been playing Sims 4. The prize pack I won was delivered today. In the box were a gaming keyboard, a gaming mouse, and a gaming headset. The Ikea gift card I won should be here soon. I have plans this evening...

  Monday, February 17, 2025 I have not done anything today except for my daily sweepstakes and instant win games. I had a strange dream. I've been having more strange dreams recently. I keep thinking about things I want to get done but then I don't do anything. I have plans for tomorrow and the rest of this week. I have a feeling that the package I was expecting today won't be delivered today.

  Sunday, February 16, 2025 I walked to the Queer Game Night yesterday. It rained some while walking there but it didn't rain too heavy. It was a shorter game night. It rained this morning. I stayed in bed longer because I had no interest in getting out of bed. A prize pack I won is scheduled for delivery tomorrow. Is finding my first boyfriend an impossible task? Will I ever have my first career? I think I want to get something done today but I also want to do nothing all day.

  Saturday, February 15, 2025 Saturday. I didn't want to get out of bed this morning. I am looking forward to attending the Queer Game Night this evening. I feel like taking a nap. I kept waking up last night. I feel tired. The prize pack I recently won in a sweepstakes is scheduled for delivery on Monday. I plan to make posts on my social showing what I won. At the moment one of my goals is to own a house and a Grounded Campervan to travel in when not home. I want a remote job so I can travel wherever and whenever I want. I am open to various options for a house but I want a Grounded Campervan to utilize while traveling. It would be great to have a boyfriend, my first boyfriend, to travel with... I'm uncertain of what will happen next. I'm hopeful that my life will improve soon... I know that I need help but I'm not great at asking for help. I have plans next week, not tomorrow, and I hope to get some things done today and next week.  I don't if it's going to r...

Friday, February 14, 2025 Happy Valentines Day. I wish that I had a boyfriend to celebrate today with.  This morning I rode my bicycle and picked up some free produce and 2 boxes of free food. I'm going to the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community today. I hope that the weather will be nice tomorrow so I can ride my bicycle to the Queer Game Night. I don't know what to do when I want to do so much and I want to do nothing at the same time. I'm considering what things I can get rid of and what things I want to keep. SPOTIFY.COM REMOVED some of my podcasts from a couple of years ago showing how they are beginning to censorship content.  I have plans next week.

  Thursday, February 13, 2025 I attended the program at the library in my community this morning. I wasn't certain that I'd be able to go because it was raining this morning.  I plan to go after some free produce in the morning but I'm uncertain because of the weather. I'm planning to attend the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community tomorrow afternoon. Saturday is the Queer Game Night and I hope that the weather will be nice. I don't feel like doing anything tonight.  I have plans for next week. I would like to walk in snow. I would like to walk around somewhere that's covered in snow. I want to find my first boyfriend. I hate being alone. It seems like it'll be impossible to meet someone. I would like a first career but I doubt if anyone will ever consider me. I don't know what to do....

  Wednesday, February 12, 2025 It's been raining. It's cold and damp outside. I've already placed the trash and recycling out for tomorrow. I'm watching a classic cartoon called Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on Paramount. I like to watch old cartoons. I have some of them on DVD. I am going to the library in the morning. Friday morning I have some free produce to go after. There's also the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community. Saturday night is the Queer Game Night. There's some classic movies like Toy Story that I want to watch.  I keep thinking about where I'd want to live. I'd like to live in a city again. Maybe New York or Chicago? I would also like to travel full-time in a Grounded Campervan. I was thinking that it would be nice to have a tiny home on land somewhere and a Grounded Campervan to travel in while not home. It would be great to have a boyfriend.  I want to work remotely and travel the country.

  Tuesday, February 11, 2025 I had a meeting this morning but it was rescheduled due to the weather. It has been been rescheduled for a week from today. I don't know what I will do today because I no longer have the meeting and I've completed my sweepstakes and instant win games for today. I need to figure out what I could do and decide what to do based on what I need to get done.  I have plans for Thursday morning. I have plans for Friday. I'm attending the Queer Game Night on Saturday. I need to start a daily routine of working on my writing. I need to make time to read daily. I need to get other things done. I'm constantly overwhelmed and depressed. I'm uncertain about everything. I doubt everything.  I had a strange dream. I want to do so much but don't have the energy to do much of anything.

 Monday, February 10, 2025 I decided to stay home today. I have a meeting tomorrow morning. I received a free Axe deodorant and Axe body spray in the mail today. I won something last week. I don't know when it'll get here. I have more plans for the week including the Queer Game Night on Saturday. I'm looking for ways to improve my life.

 Sunday, February 09, 2025 I was considering going to a program tomorrow evening at the library in the town across the river from the community where I live. I'm not certain if I will go or not. I have plans for the rest of the week. My MacBook is still not working. I'm uncertain about my future.

 Saturday, February 08, 2025 I had a horrible experience yesterday at the Walgreens located at  2224 Augusta Rd, West Columbia, SC 29169 They attempted to charge me regular price for an item marked as on sale at the display. The employees were rude and lacked training. I was harassed by a homophobic manager that has treated me rudely before. I don't know why Walgreens keeps people like this. I went to the accessibility day at the museum close to the town across the river from the community I live. It was great. There was a 4D show about the migration of sardines.  I had a free lunch at a religious facility before heading home. They also played bingo and I won. I had to take a nap when I came home because I didn't feel well. I have plans for Monday.  I'm not feeling well. I have other plans for next week aside from Monday but nothing planned for tomorrow.

 Friday, February 07, 2025 Friday and I'm home waiting to leave for a program at my local community library. I'm considering going by 711 first for a free slurpee. I'm somewhat actively looking for a boyfriend, my first boyfriend, and future partner in life. I don't know if I'll ever meet the right guy but I'm not going to be with the wrong guy. I have plans for tomorrow morning. I have plans next week. I dream of a life, having a life, and being happy. I browse homes for sale and I imagine having my first home. I have things that I want to work on but I also have this feeling that whatever I do would be a waste of time.

 Thursday, February 06, 2025 I decided not to go anywhere today.  I'm planning to go to a program at my local community library tomorrow.  I have plans for Saturday. I'm thinking about what I should do today. I'm looking forward to having my first boyfriend. It would be great if I  could get my life started. I need an income. I need a home.  Most of the comedy shows on streaming that I watch aren't funny. I have plans for next week...

 Wednesday, February 05, 2025 I'm looking for my first boyfriend. Let's meet soon and cuddle. You can be the big spoon and slide inside of me. I could be the big spoon and slide into you. We could be together and someday have a wedding....

 Wednesday, February 05, 2025 I'm going somewhere today but I won't be gone long. I need to focus on the things that I need to get done. I am considering going somewhere tomorrow and Friday. I have plans for Saturday morning. I need to figure out how not to become overwhelmed whenever I'm deciding what to do. I need to decide what to do and do those things....

 Tuesday, February 04, 2025 Tuesday. I'm anxious about so much. I haven't done much today because I didn't feel up to doing anything.  I have plans for tomorrow. I need to check my calendar for the rest of the week.  Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever have my first boyfriend. I think about what it'd be like to have my first boyfriend.  The USPS has failed to deliver several items over the past few months. I don't know what else I'll do today...

Monday, February 03, 2025 I'm looking for a LTR. I have a new app that I'm trying out.  I need to decide what I'm doing tonight. I have plans for Wednesday but nothing planned for tomorrow. I have things I need to get done. I have no idea what will happen next. I'm lonely and hoping to meet the right guy soon.

 Sunday, February 02, 2025 I attended the Queer Game Night yesterday. There were a couple of cute guys. I was able to talk with one of the new guys and I'd love to get to know him better.  I met a cute guy on my ride home. I was on my new bicycle. I stopped at a corner. He asked me if I thought there was enough room on my bike for him. I wish I had said we could try and see but I said that I didn't know. He said a few other things. He said that I probably have a big cock because of my bike, I guess the size of my cock. I would have liked to show him my cock if we were somewhere less public and I know what I'd like to do with and where to put his cock. I had a horrible night trying to sleep. I kept waking up. I need a boyfriend. I need sex. I'm not interested in old men. I'm versatile. My cock isn't giant but it's not remotely small. It's above average. I'm not interested in rimming, receiving or giving. I'm looking for a boyfriend who will some...

 Saturday, February 01, 2025 Saturday. The first day of a new month. I'm hopeful that things will improve for me despite the orange creep pretending to be the president. I'm working on a few things and I hope to do more this month. I think about having my first boyfriend and not having to be alone all the time. I'm uncertain about everything but I hope that things will work out for me. I'm attending the Queer Game Night this evening.