Monday, January 13, 2025

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 Monday, January 13, 2025




I wonder if it's possible for me to find my first boyfriend and obtain my first career. I  feel like I can't do anything to change my life for the better. 


I received fabric samples for a wedding dress today. I often imagine meeting someone someday and him proposing to me. I imagine our wedding and I was recently considering what I would wear to my wedding.


I spend most of my time alone. 



I don't feel like doing much of anything but there's so much I want to do...




I want to learn how to play drums. I have a drum set but not a space to have it setup.




I want to have my own home and space to do the creative things that interest me.

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