F. Jason Whitaker Writer

So much wrong with the everyday Life stuck in this in-between place I recall her face And I'm lost Without her.

I'm going through these days Nights alone missing you, I'm feeling things I never knew, Crushed by the weight of the absence I'm wondering how things will be after This phase in the process of my life. I'm going through too much Lost in the empty of these emotions Gathered over the years Now coming to the surface. I'm stuck in this misery Waiting for hope to find me And take me from this place I've been left abandoned.

I feel the times before in my mind How much they remind me Of all that's been lost. I'm not okay, Not been since Before I remember when. These years fade into I'm drifting in-between Memories of times gone I want to hold onto But memories lingering Are all I have from when Before things changed Leaving me here alone in this place...

 I'm waiting for the sun to wake me I'm awake dreaming I'm making moments of memories Looking back over the years I'm missing...

 Dare I say the words I've been thinking all of my life, I struggle to get through each day without you, I'm falling apart on the inside  As with each day  I'm wondering if I can go on Ignore the pain of your absence Ignore my need for you in my life again. I've lost so much  I feel the voids Tearing me apart I fail to start Because I don't want to fail again  My life is full of failing I'm telling you the deepest sadness of my heart Where do I start? When there's so much sorrow in my life...

 A crowded room I'm alone Standing by another tree Trying to find What I've been missing All of my life I've been a dreamer Watching everyone I've ever known Moving on from me, I'm writing this in my room in the dark In the middle of the night While wishing I wasn't alone.