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Wednesday, December 31, 2025

Wednesday, December 31, 2025 I haven't posted in weeks. I've considered posting a few times but didn't feel like it. I've been here since the day before Thanksgiving. I've been walking around the area. I now have a library card. I've been trying to deal with being here. Being here made me realize that I was correct in my thinking about living in South Carolina. If I remain in South Carolina I will spend most of my time alone. I've spent most of my time since June alone.  I've been thinking about this time last year. I miss my mom. I miss my cat. I miss my bedroom and my things. I miss my routines. I was sent a few items for Christmas by a LinkedIn connection. I attended 2 Christmas parties. I have a nice blanket from one party. The room I'm in is very hot most of the time. It's been different living in facilities with seniors these past 6 months.  I'm still waiting for my benefits and I will continue working on moving back to California. I mi...

begin

Another year ending I'm still here waiting No idea when things Will be changing. This year my life Rearranging Now I'm waiting For my life to begin...

again

Early morning before sunrise I feel those feelings again Each time I recall her passing I'm going through it again, Those feelings like reliving Those moments of sorrow All over again knowing I'll keep feeling these feelings Until there's no tomorrow...

traveler

I'm a solitary traveler My journey is life My destination is I'm going somewhere Someday I'll be there I'm a solitary traveler I don't know how much longer It'll be before I'm leaving here for there It's a long distance I'm going to travel I'm heading back to California It's been years since I've been there But it feels like I've never left there...

mom

It's strange These days Waking up here alone Merry Christmas I'd say to you I'd hug you I'd spend the day by your side I miss those days I miss the times We spent each day and night.

you

I feel you though you're not here, I'm staying here until I don't know when...

here

I have no time for anything I'm wandering these roads In search of something I'll never find here...