F. Jason Whitaker Writer

  Wednesday, March 05, 2025 Wednesday. Rain. Wind. Tornado warning. I woke up early and couldn't get back to sleep. Someone is taking me to pick up some produce today. I don't know what else I'm doing today. I plan to begin going through my stuff and getting rid of things. I need to sell whatever I can to raise funds for my future. I have ideas for things I'd like to do if I had the money. I'm considering plans for tomorrow morning. I have plans for Saturday. I think I'll need to take a nap sometime today. I feel like I'm waiting for the unknown to happen. I feel tired and anxious. I would like to have a career and my first boyfriend. I don't believe I'll ever have either one. I played bingo yesterday and I won a candle warmer which I traded the person across from me for a candle. I picked up my free sandwich on the way home but I had to get a ride because the chain on my bicycle kept coming off. The person who picked me up took the bike to a shop to...

  Tuesday, March 04, 2025 Tuesday. I have a meeting at the library in my community today and then I'm playing Mardi Gra Bingo at the library. I'm going to a sandwich shop for a free sandwich afterwards. It's difficult seeing the US turning into a dictatorship with the worst people possible in charge. Things were never perfect but now things are horrible. Tomorrow I'm going after some produce. I am considering going to the classic movie program at the library in my community on Thursday. I have plans for Saturday morning. I haven't looked at next week yet. I've completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games for the day.  I'm uncertain about what will happen next.  I'm anxious about the future. I'm nervous about what to do. I'm uncertain if anyone reads my blog.

   Monday, March 03, 2025 I attended the dinner at the center yesterday. Today I'm staying home. Tomorrow I'm going to a Mardi Gra Bingo at the library in my community. I have more plans for this week. My birthday is March 15th. I'm wondering how I'll get through the rest of the year and the next 3 years. I'm wondering how I'm going to do anything.  I'm uncertain about everything and most of the time I don't feel like doing anything. I want to do much but then I wonder why should I do anything. I want a boyfriend. If you want to be my boyfriend please get to know me by spending time with me.  I want to travel and go camping and go on road trips. I need a boyfriend to show me places. MONDAY. March 03. 2025.

  Sunday, March 02, 2025 Sunday. I'm going to a dinner at the center this evening. Last night I attended the Queer Game Night. The person who hosts the game night gave me a vase of flowers and a card. I went to bed late last night. I have plans this week. I'm planning to go through my stuff and get ready as though I'm moving so I'm more ready for when I'll have to move. I don't know where I'll move because I don't know where I'll go. I met someone last night who I plan on playing video games with soon. These days don't feel real.  I feel uncertain about everything. I feel like going back to bed. I also want to go to the dinner this evening...

  Saturday, March 01, 2025 Saturday. It doesn't feel real.  I went to a program at the library in my community. There were cupcakes and brownies and popcorn. I went by Tropical Smoothie Cafe on the way home and redeemed the T-mobile Tuesday reward. I'm going to the Queer Game Night this evening. Tomorrow evening I'm planning to attend the dinner. I'm on the Archer dating app but I don't think anything will result from it. I wish that I a boyfriend who would take me on road trips and vacations. I'd like to go camping. I want sex again but only if it's in a relationship. I've considered meeting guys for sex alone but I don't think I could do that again. If someone were attracted to me I'd like to know. You would have to tell me because I won't pick up on anything subtle. I'm uncertain about this year and my future. I have more plans for next week starting tomorrow...

  Friday, February 28, 2025 I'm depressed. Someone I care about was told today that she might only have 6 months to live. I don't know what I'll do when she's gone. I don't know if I'll go anywhere today. I'm considering my plans. My head hurts and I've been crying...