Sunday, November 5, 2017 (Part One)

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I sit upon the wall of rocks. The traffic passes on the road below. A song is stuck in  my head. It's a song from a commercial I've seen again and again. I wait trying to avoid glancing at my watch. He's not late. I'm early. I hate to wait. I hate to be late.


I imagine the clouds as the things they represent. A teddy bear floats overhead. I had a teddy bear once when I was a child. I'm a teen now but sometimes I miss that bear. Whatever happened to Mr. Rufus I shall never know.


I hate dating. Is this a date? I think it could be a date. I said so when I chatted with him. I hate meeting guys like that. Online. I like to meet in person. How do you meet anyone in person or in general?


I have seen his photographs. He's very cute but sometimes photographs can be deceiving...

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