F. Jason Whitaker Writer

   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Saturday, May 31, 2025 I went to one place this morning. I had planned on going somewhere else today but I didn't feel like going anywhere. I took naps while watching the final season of Big Mouth. I'm going somewhere tomorrow evening. I was offered an interview for a job at a retail furniture store but I had to decline because of the distance to the store. It's located in either Irmo or Seven Oaks South Carolina. If it were in Columbia I could have possibly made it. I'm feeling better than I did on Friday...

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       This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Wednesday, May 28, 2025 It's Wednesday. I didn't go to the free lunch I typically attend because I had to go and pick up some produce. I had a ride. Last night was long. I didn't sleep well or long. I'm trying to decide whether or not I feel up to going somewhere this evening. I'm tired and I'm not feeling well...

      This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Tuesday, May 27, 2025 Tuesday. I'm anxious. Please help. Please subscribe to my Patreon...

     This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Monday, May 26, 2025 Monday evening. I'm cooking dinner. I had a late breakfast. I haven't eaten since then. I haven't done much today. I completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games. I watched the last episode of the current season of The Last of US. I need to get to sleep earlier tonight. I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow. I have plans for Wednesday...

    This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Sunday, May 25, 2025 Sunday. I went to sleep late last night and I remained in bed later this morning. I have no plans until Wednesday. I need actual help. I need help obtaining my first career doing something that is appropriate for me and not something that someone who doesn't truly know me thinks is good for me. I need to figure out my life including where I'll live. I know I'll need help with those things and more but I'm not receiving help with most of the things that I need help with...

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  This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Thursday, May 22, 2025 Thursday. I woke up around 5 AM this morning. I completed my daily sweepstakes and instant win games. I went back to sleep. It's hot. I don't feel up to doing much today. I have plans tomorrow evening...

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      This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Tuesday, May 20, 2025 Tuesday. I have plans for today. I don't know what to do. I have ideas but I don't have the funds to do anything. I have plans tomorrow evening and Friday evening...

     This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Monday, May 19, 2025 It's Monday afternoon and I'm considering what to do today and I want to do so many things but I also don't want to do anything. I want to go back to sleep. I have plans Tuesday Wednesday and Friday. Yesterday was a long day. I pushed myself yesterday because I had two things I wanted to do and now I'm overwhelmed and tired. I'm considering what I should focus on because I usually end up overwhelmed and not getting anything done. Typically I have too many options so I do nothing...

   This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Sunday, May 18, 2025 Sunday. I have plans for today. I have plans for several days of the rest of May. I hope that someone out there will be willing to help me. I have been sharing my links on my blogs in hopes of reaching anyone who could help me. ..

  This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Saturday, May 17, 2025 Saturday. The Queer Game night was canceled. I've taken a few naps today. I was very tired after yesterday. I have plans for tomorrow. I also have plans for Tuesday Wednesday and Friday. I am considering what I can do tonight...

 Friday, May 16, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k

  Thursday, May 15, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k f Thursday. I have no plans for today. I have plans for tomorrow evening. I have no idea what I'm doing...

  Wednesday, May 14, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 Please visit and share my Gofundme. https://gofund.me/d8706bba Please purchase and read my books of poetry: https://amzn.to/3SBfKtX https://amzn.to/3YNGb3k Wednesday. I went after some produce this morning. I am going to the dinner I go to most Wednesday evenings. The Queer Game night this Saturday has been canceled. I plan to attend the Queer Collective Friday. I have plans for Sunday. I have more plans for the rest of next week. I've been watching the new season of Andor. I plan to continue reading the book I checked out from the library in my community. I hope to finish it today so I can start reading the other book I checked out...

   Please visit and share my Gofundme. This blog is continued on my Patreon. Tuesday, May 13, 2025 It's Tuesday. I went to sleep late last night. It was after 3. I woke up several times early today and kept going back to sleep. I rode my bicycle to the D&D program at the center yesterday. I was given a ride home. On the way to the center I picked up a large half priced smoothie from Smoothie King. I post a blog each day. The full version is on my Patreon. https://www.patreon.com/jason29171 I also have a Gofundme which I doubt will ever get funded. I need help but I doubt anyone is going to help me. https://gofund.me/be041287

  Monday, May 12, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. Please visit and share my Gofundme. Monday, May 12, 2025 Monday. Yesterday I went to the center for ice cream Sundays. I had one. I could have painted a pot for a plant but I wasn't feeling like painting anything. I went to the library in the town across the river from my community. I attended a zine program. I had the zine I finished a couple of days ago and I was given 2 copies. Two copies are now available at the library. I began working on my next zine. I like making zines. On my way home it rained and my clothes were soaked by the time I arrived home. ...

 Sunday, May 11, 2025 Sunday. This blog is continued on my Patreon. Please visit and share my Gofundme. It's Mother's day. I'm planning to go to the center today for a program. I plan to go from the center to the library in the town across the river from my community for a zine program. I plan to attend the D&D program at the center tomorrow. I never know how the weather will affect my plans...

 Saturday, May 10, 2025 This blog is continued on my Patreon. Please visit and share my Gofundme. Saturday morning. It's early. I woke up early today and I have completed my sweepstakes and instant win games for today. I'm planning to go to the museum for the sensory morning and on my way home I will have a free lunch. I don't know what else I will do today. I have plans for tomorrow and Monday depending on the weather. I keep going. I keep getting up and going through each day with the hope that today will be the day that things begin to get better...

 Woke up alone again, another morning of solitude aware of my isolation.

 Friday, May 09, 2025 I post the complete version of my blog on my Patreon. Visit and share my Gofundme. I went to bed late yesterday and I stayed in bed later this morning. I'm planning to attend the Autism program at the library in the town across the river from my community. Tomorrow morning I'm going to museum and a place for a free lunch. I have plans for Sunday and Monday...

Late at night I wake from dreams of you, I wake from dreams of you... I could be your home, Wherever you go I could be the place You go to get away From... I hear your voice whenever I close my eyes, I don't know why I can't get you out of my mind...

I hear you in my dreams, Vivid dreams of you, The places we once went, The things we did when No one was around... Today I go found Myself thinking about you  And the way you Made me feel Whenever I was near you.

The way your body made me want to do Things I never imagined before... Your lips against mine Make me want to remain in your arms... The way you are makes me want to be Forever alone with you...

The light of the moon Through leaves shaking In a gentle breeze. I'm on my way home From a night out. I'm alone as the hours pass, Trying to recall Times before When I wasn't alone And the days were less sad.

I once wrote epic poems  That appeared to never end, I often pretend I belong here But do I belong anywhere. I'm aware of my solitude How often I spend my waking hours alone. I once wrote poems everyday But now I only write when the mood Brings the words to my mind.

I dance alone in the night  To music you never hear, I feel the breeze blowing through And I'm dancing again To a song I've heard A thousand times Alone in my room Away from everyone. I dance alone in the night To the songs I've heard Since I've listened to the sounds Of life passing by... I'll never know why I'm always Dancing alone in the night.

Hello, there in the White House, I'm not going anywhere, I hear the nonsense You say everyday, We won't stop trying To send you packing. You are the villain In this fairy tale Of what could have been If that wonderful lady Were where you are now...

I bet you think you know who I am... I'm not always the same. I'm always me But somewhat different.

A road you built years ago  Still divides Those you wanted To conquer and destroy.

Smoke rising from last night's fire, I see you there Basking in the early morning sun, I've never felt this close To anyone before you And I'm too aware Of by faults To ever tell you I'm in love with you...

I am here alone Dreaming of A boy I once knew, I don't know If you Ever think about me. I was in love. You were something else, We kissed and more But that's all you wanted From me I was just a moment in your life A moment  I remember from time to time...

  Thursday, May 08, 2025 Thursday. I'm posting the full version of this on my  Patreon . I was planning to attend the open mic that I was invited to but it looks like I won't be going anywhere today due to the weather. I have plans for the rest of the week but my plans could change depending upon the weather. I still haven't received any contributions to my fundraiser. I knew that no one would give... https://gofund.me/8598ffba

  Wednesday, May 07, 2025 https://gofund.me/e25a1148 https://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo https://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/writer https://filmmakerjasonwhit.wixsite.com/photo2 Wednesday morning. I'm considering going to the DMV to obtain a free ID. I'm planning to go by Krispy Kreme for a free donut. I remember meeting the few guys that I was attracted to and wishing I could meet them again. I liked spending time with them. It's not just getting my dick sucked or topping or bottoming a cute guy. It's about spending time with a guy who I'm comfortable with and enjoy being around. Will I ever have a first career. I keep applying and I almost never get an interview. I have no idea what I'm doing. I keep thinking that tomorrow will be the day in which things begin to work out. I'm tired. I do not have much energy left. I am not motivated to do anything most days. I feel self conscious and uncertain about myself. I wonder if I'll ever have a fi...

 Tuesday, May 06, 2025 https://gofund.me/3ed6347b Tuesday. I didn't get the job at the bowling alley. I'm doing some laundry. I don't plan to go anywhere today. I'm considering what else I should do today. I have plans for the rest of the week but my plans could change due to the weather. These hours alone I think about things. I think about the future and the past. I hope things will improve soon...

  Monday, May 05, 2025 https://gofund.me/640c6c99 Monday. I have my interview today at the bowling alley. It's not a specific time but anytime during a certain hour. I'm unsure of myself. I have some ideas and goals. There are things I would like to do but I don't have the money or resources for anything. I will continue to apply to job openings. I have plans for this week but I don't know what the weather will be like...

  Sunday, May 04,2025 Sunday. https://gofund.me/df4bc34d I went to the Queer Game night yesterday. I'm planning to attend the dinner this evening. Last night I had a difficult time going to sleep. I woke up several times.  I have lunch plans. I have plans for this week.

  Saturday, May 03, 2025 https://gofund.me/9e9e0300 Saturday. I woke up later than usual this morning. I'm going to the Queer Game Night this evening. I have a ride. I'm planning to attend the dinner tomorrow evening. I have a job interview at a bowling alley on Monday. I'm uncertain about everything. I need a place to live. I want my first career. I need my first boyfriend. I feel weird about my body and my appearance. I feel weird about myself. I often look in the mirror and see someone that isn't me. I have a penis. I have these varying feelings towards my dick. I'm not getting rid of it but sometimes I have this feeling that's difficult to describe. I look at it and touch it and I feel as though it's foreign to me. I'm open to dating if a guy were to ask me. I want a boyfriend, a LTR. I don't want to be with someone I'm not attracted to and someone I'm comfortable with.. I've had so many experiences and some were very unique expe...

It's early I know But I want to tell you  How I've felt all of these years. I touched you there, You had your mouth there, It felt too good  To have only been  One time together  Those years ago...

  Friday, May 02, 2025 Friday. https://gofund.me/a7630994 I picked up free flowers from Lowe's this morning. Tomorrow evening I'm going to the Queer Game Night. Sunday I'm planning to go a dinner in the evening.  I've applied to so many different jobs over the last few days. I doubt I'll get any of them. I'm anxious about the future.

  Thursday, May 01, 2025 https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-autistic-transnonbinary-individual Thursday. https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-an-autistic-transnonbinary-individual I have a meeting with Able SC today. I'm planning to go to Lowes tomorrow for a free flower. I've planned to go to a craft program at the library in my community on Saturday as well as the Queer Game Night but there's a strong chance of strong thunderstorms for Saturday. I'm uncertain about everything. I have ideas for what I'd do if I had the finances and resources but I don't have any finances and a limited amount of resources. I don't have a support system. I'm trying to figure out what to do on my own. One reason I no longer go to a church building is because I've seen what they are and how they're Only about the money. In general they don't help people. If there are churches out there that help people They could help me. I'm going to continue sharing my fundrais...